by FURAHA MOYE
At the start of this New Year there was a significant amount of trepidation as to how to proceed. How was I to continue on the path that was so clear in the years before Covid-19? While I’ve realized a number of virtual auditions on Zoom, and continued to go out and walk New York City as a photographer, I was still adrift. As much as I value life and its endless possibilities, there remained a bit of dread when I thought about the “age-factor” in the grand scheme of things as a woman. So I needed to spend a fair amount of time finding peace with the aging process, become one with it and to be thankful for it.
Fortunately I’ve reached the age of 72 at a time when women of a certain age have begun to slowly, assuredly and confidently take center stage and dreams have become realities. And on top of that showing up as their authentic selves without the need to appear to be years younger. It’s encouraging to look at television, see movies, social media and print advertising and see older women as themselves.
Faith and gratitude have been integral on this journey. I look often in retrospect relative to this journey and am mindful of just how vital a positive attitude, faith and gratitude play a part in how I progress from day to day. Additionally, there’s the understanding that there’s no such thing as kismet, chance, luck, coincidence or serendipity.
I chose to pursue an acting career in New York City at the tender age of 50. I reflect on the amazing things that have happened over the past 22 years and am again reminded of the importance of faith and gratitude and how vital it has been throughout these past years. Attitude is everything. Too often I’d be in my head about my expectations and how I perceive or want things to play out in my life. If anything time has taught me, it is that I only THINK I’m in control. Everything is in Divine Order, which is where I believe the importance of faith and gratitude come in.
You see, I believed when I gave up my frameshop, my successful middle income life to pursue acting, that this was the path I was always meant to be on. I believed that I would be successful in my new career as well. I’ve never given up and will never give up on my dream of being a consistently working actor. Sure, it has had its highs and lows and the opportunities continue to surprise and amaze me; even 22 years later. My three favorite hashtags are: #followyourdreams #nevergiveup and #nytough. I believe in them. I was intended here for a specific and finite reason and mine is not to question but to listen, comprehend and understand from the depths of my soul that without faith and gratitude to the Creator that intended me here none of my reality is even possible.